When by thy scorn, O murd'ress, I am dead (A)
And that thou think'st thee free (B)
From all solicitation from me, (B)
Then shall my ghost come to thy bed,(A)
And thee, feign'd vestal, in worse arms shall see; (B)
Then thy sick taper will begin to wink, (C)
And he, whose thou art then, being tir'd before, (D)
Will, if thou stir, or pinch to wake him, think (C)
Thou call'st for more, (D)
And in false sleep will from thee shrink; (C)
And then, poor aspen wretch, neglected thou (E)
Bath'd in a cold quicksilver sweat wilt lie (F)
A verier ghost than I. (F)
What I will say, I will not tell thee now, (E)
Lest that preserve thee; and since my love is spent, (G)
I'had rather thou shouldst painfully repent, (G)
Than by my threat'nings rest still innocent. (G)
What does this poem mean?
To me, this poem is about a man who was wronged by his ex lover. I do not get a clear sense of what she did to him exactly (I'm guessing she cheated, that's the first thing that came to mind) but he is definitely hurt about it. So much so that he haunts her when he's dead. She sees his ghost one night at the flicker of a candle while she's with her new lover and she tries to wake her lover but he ignores her. She is now faced with the ghost and is terrified. I like when he says "And then, poor aspen wretch, neglected thou
Bath'd in a cold quicksilver sweat wilt lie
A verier ghost than I" because he shows how afraid she is as she faces her wrongs in this physical form. She is so petrified that she begins to look like the ghost. For a moment I even thought that maybe the ghost was her mind manifesting her guilt into the form of a ghost to show her repent. My favorite part of the poem is perhaps the triplet it ends in because the speaker is basically saying, "I'm not going to tell you why I'm here because I want you to suffer in your own", which I think is so powerful.
I think in this poem Donne is warning humanity that our wrongs will follow us and literally haunt us. I think he is saying that we cannot escape the pain we cause and we will pay for it sooner or later.
What?
Okay so a couple of things in this poem really made me think "what?!" but I think I've gotten the idea of what this poem is about. I've an understanding of his message and the story he conveys but these lines still baffle me:
"And he, whose thou art then, being tir'd before
Will, if thou stir, or pinch to wake him, think
Thou call'st for more"
So, her lover will think she's asking for more...more what? Sex? Attention? And if she tries to wake him, he will pretend to be asleep? (as suggested in the lines that follow). I think this means that her lover will grow tired of her and by ignoring her he basically makes her face the apparition.
How did I feel?
The tone of the poem is very spiteful, revengeful and a bit cynical. It's almost taunting and I deeply enjoy that sense of mocking torment. It makes me feel vulnerable in a way because I see how much power this nonliving form has over this woman. Also, I can see how powerful the human mind is in taking control of our very being.
Did I like it?
I can honestly say that I enjoyed deciphering the messages in this poem. I did not understand it at first and did not enjoy the darkness of the poem. After reading it a few times I appreciate the challenge and the abstract view of the world. Seeing this poem through the eyes of a ghost was quite interesting because he has deep and profound feelings which is quite intriguing to me.